Are You Still?
Are You Still?
Do you still think of me?
Am I just your old “used to be”?
Do I cross your mind
Once in a while?
Do you ever wonder how
It might have been if
We had finished
What we started
That I disregarded?
I still wonder if you think of me
And all I promised that we’d always be.
I want to know
If I’ll ever hold your hand again?
If I’ll ever feel you trembling
With our bodies close?
I want to know
Are you still wondering?
We know that,
I was young so were you.
I had the whole world but not a clue.
What I thought I wanted then,
Childish dreams of a grown man.
I was “following my own path”.
But I walked away and didn’t look back.
When I got the where I was going to
I was so alone and needing you.
I still wonder if you think of me
And all I promised that we’d always be.
I want to know
If I’ll ever hold your hand again?
If I’ll ever feel you trembling
With our bodies close?
I want to know
Are you still wondering?
I can never say I’m sorry too many times.
I’ve been living with this guilt all up in my mind.
I’m not trying to make amends or “get to you”.
I just needed you to know what I’ve been going through.
Please don’t get twisted what I’m trying to say
But I still dream about you damn near everyday.
I ain’t trying to steal your life or break up your home.
I just had to let you know I was wrong.
I still wonder if you think of me
And all I promised that we’d always be.
I want to know
If I’ll ever hold your hand again?
If I’ll ever feel you trembling
With our bodies close?
I want to know
Are you still wondering?
Dale Drinkard, Jr.
January 11, 2024