Are You Still?

Do you still think of me?

Am I just your old “used to be”?

Do I cross your mind

Once in a while?

Do you ever wonder how

It might have been if

We had finished

What we started

That I disregarded?

I still wonder if you think of me

And all I promised that we’d always be.

I want to know

If I’ll ever hold your hand again?

If I’ll ever feel you trembling

With our bodies close?

I want to know

Are you still wondering?

We know that,

I was young so were you.

I had the whole world but not a clue.

What I thought I wanted then,

Childish dreams of a grown man.

I was “following my own path”.

But I walked away and didn’t look back.

When I got the where I was going to

I was so alone and needing you.

I still wonder if you think of me

And all I promised that we’d always be.

I want to know

If I’ll ever hold your hand again?

If I’ll ever feel you trembling

With our bodies close?

I want to know

Are you still wondering?

I can never say I’m sorry too many times.

I’ve been living with this guilt all up in my mind.

I’m not trying to make amends or “get to you”.

I just needed you to know what I’ve been going through.

Please don’t get twisted what I’m trying to say

But I still dream about you damn near everyday.

I ain’t trying to steal your life or break up your home.

I just had to let you know I was wrong.

I still wonder if you think of me

And all I promised that we’d always be.

I want to know

If I’ll ever hold your hand again?

If I’ll ever feel you trembling

With our bodies close?

I want to know

Are you still wondering?

Dale Drinkard, Jr.

January 11, 2024